Finding My Fun

posted 9th October 2010    Written by: Renee    CATEGORY: Love/Relationships, Quarterlife Crisis, Renee, Season 3

Writing about what I do for fun proved to be far more difficult than one would anticipate. The short answer to “What do you do for fun, Renee?” Well, um, nothing.

You see, fun requires friends and time… two things that my life is lacking at the moment. Sure, I have my moments. But for the most part, my existence is spent feeling over worked, underpaid, and so, so tired.

One of the biggest themes in my Joy Equation was to “find my fun.” I used to be a pretty happenin’ chick in undergrad – throwing myself raucous birthday bashes, partaking in too much eggnog at the Christmas soiree with the boys, jumping up and down to “Since U Been Gone” and knowing all the words to the latest Miley Cyrus song, dominating beer pong but preferring flip cup… Somehow between graduation in 2008 and now I’ve lost my fun. I now prefer pajama nights on the couch with the newest episode of Chuck with my hubs and my cat and maybe a glass of pinot noir.  Even at the three weddings we went to this summer, I had one or two amaretto sours before calling it a night. I’m in bed by 9:30pm. I’m up by 5:30am. I really feel like I’ve lost my fun.

I’m on a mission to find my fun. I know it can’t be too far. I found it hiking on the shores of Lake Superior this past August. I find it in my kitchen making dinner for a friend or two. I find it next to my husband at a bar with greasy pub food. I found it at the opening Notre Dame game (before the Purdue fan threw up on us).  In finding my fun, I would first need to find better time management skills or someone to take my job(s) or do my homework.

I’m looking for more. I need a bit more skip in my step. I could use a heart-to-heart over sushi with a new friend. I would like a bit more weekend adventure.  I could really go for a giant chocolate martini. I really want to spend a long evening playing board games, like right now.

But there’s just not enough hours in a day.

In the meantime, I’ll find my own fun in my walks across campus, ridiculing awkward undergrads in my head. I’ll find my own fun in the podcasts I listen to each morning while I drive to school. I’ll find my own fun in the dreams that occur when I fall asleep on the couch reading my homework. I soak in the evenings I’m home to cook dinner and veg out with my hubs and cat. I’ll squeeze in a lunch date instead of catching up on sleep or homework. I’ll prioritize better and put fun just a little higher.

[photo: Erin Parker]

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8 Responses to “Finding My Fun”

  • erinmakesitwork Says:
    October 9th, 2010 at 4:08 pm

    I can so relate. I feel like my fun got sucked up in the big black hole of life. Over on my blog, I posted about all the little things that bring me joy. That's where I find my fun these days.

  • Alisha Says:
    October 10th, 2010 at 12:13 pm

    I really relate to this. I don't feel fun any more either. Outside of playdates to the library or park, the internet is all I have. I did decide last week, though, that I need to go find it. I waited two years for it to find me and it hasn't happened yet. I guess I need to be a little more proactive.

  • nikki_klecha Says:
    October 10th, 2010 at 6:04 pm

    You WILL find your fun – life has stages & fun sometimes comes in waves so just be patient. Things won't always be so stressful and the more you make fun a priority, the more it will elbow it's way into your days. Maybe if you just make time for one awesome, BIG activity once a week – bowling night or board game sunday – it'll fulfill your fun quota and kick-start your fun-radar. :)

  • Erin Says:
    October 11th, 2010 at 11:13 am

    Hey…that's me! That weekend was the epitome of fun for me.

    I totally understand about needing to find your fun. It's something that I struggle with too. Maybe we should find some free type fun to do together. Game night? Wii bowling tournament? Fondue night?

  • Renee Says:
    October 12th, 2010 at 4:02 am

    Oh Erin, I would love fondue or game night or Wii bowling tournament! Let's plan for this asap!! (PS This is totally one of my favorite pics from that weekend. We look adorable.)

  • Renee Says:
    October 12th, 2010 at 4:02 am

    My husband and I have recently made it a goal to go out on a weekly date… hopefully this will help!!

  • Renee Says:
    October 12th, 2010 at 4:02 am

    You're right. We can't sit back and wait for our fun to find us.

  • Renee Says:
    October 12th, 2010 at 4:03 am

    I did this on my personal blog for awhile. Maybe I need a jumpstart with my little moments of joy.

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