You Gotta Have Faith

posted 17th November 2010    Written by: Nikki    CATEGORY: All Posts, Nikki, Season 3, Spirituality

Lately, I’ve been spouting off a lot about TRUST.  How I’m trusting that I am where I need to be and that where I’m headed is the right direction.  I’m trusting that things will work out and I’m trusting that all these opportunities I’m saying yes to will somehow come together to form this great big lovely life I want.  When people ask what I’m doing, I say, “trusting,” and they don’t know what to say to that because it makes me sound like some guru-level wise woman who sweats patience and benevolently chuckles at their ant-like scurrying.

But I am sooooo not.

It’s damn hard to trust.  And what am I trusting, anyway?  “The Universe” isn’t like some shady boyfriend; you can’t check it’s phone for guilty texts and it can’t prove itself by maintaining eye contact when a miniskirt struts by.  I can sit down and have a talk with it about how I want to be treated, but it’s a one-sided conversation.  How do I know that I even should be trusting?

Well, I don’t.  And it freaks me out sometimes.  When I slam into a figurative detour sign on the road I’m speeding down (which has happened a LOT lately) I flip.  I get nervous and anxious and start to question myself and where I was headed.  But then, I choose to trust.  I could figure out a way around the detour sign or ram it down with my car, but I choose to believe that it’s there for a reason, and follow it.

I don’t know where I’d be if I HAD run over the detour and kept on my merry way, but I’m pretty happy with where I am now; I can’t think of much – if anything – in my past I would change, and therefore, my faith has never led me wrong.

I believe in a higher power.  You can call it God (I do) or Yaweh or Jesus or Buddha or Elohim or Allah or The Universe or Frank.  I don’t think it cares what you call it, I believe it cares that we live with love and positive intention.  I don’t mean to offend anyone who thinks differently; there are many religious views I disagree with and I expect to be disagreed with on mine by someone.  It’s ok, we can still be friends.

The God I believe in created us all, loves us all and wants us all to love each other.  The Universe I believe in is the way that all things are connected under God, and it responds to my energy because it is part of me.  When I do good and feel good, I get good in return.  When I am negative and angry, I get that right back too.  I see this manifest in my life and so I believe it.  I feel the presence of God in every moment of gratitude and in every good thing.  When I feel secure, when I feel loved, when I feel happy and my gut instinct is singing a tuning forks perfect pitch, I feel that God is with me, so I believe.

Simple as that.

I could be wrong.  I’m only human.  My idea of God is only what I’ve experienced & a lot of people experience it differently.  But I figure, even if I am wrong, it’s led me to live a life of joy, kindness and calm.  I try to do good and feel happy, and help others to live the same way, and there’s no amount of religious dogma or rational argument that can convince me that’s not the right way to live.

So, when I trust, I am trusting in God’s wisdom and love, The Universe’s safety-net web of intention & connection, and my own gut instinct, guided by both.  When I trust, I release my idea of the outcome in order to let better things in.  When I trust, I can enjoy each moment.  When I trust, I am taken care of.

And I don’t need some dude’s text messages to tell me that.

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20 Responses to “You Gotta Have Faith”

  • Doniree Says:
    November 17th, 2010 at 8:45 am

    This is a beautiful post, Nikki. I LOVE the way you explain The Univers and God and the relationship between the two – you summed up so simply something I've been trying to reconcile in my mind, and I love it :)

  • speaksoftlyandcarryaredpen Says:
    November 17th, 2010 at 8:45 am

    I love this. I know that I've sometimes had a really hard time leaving it up to God or the fates or what have you – especially if I'm going through a particularly rough patch. It's amazing however, that when I'm wanting a sign or needing a sign to solidify my wavering trust, I usually get it. I can be a tiny one, but something always brings me back. It's not easy, but it helps. I loved this post. Thank you for writing it!

  • Corey Says:
    November 17th, 2010 at 8:51 am

    Yes! This is so true! I've come to a very similar conclusion lately and it's such a great feeling. It's like being completely independent because the faith and trust that I carry with me becomes my stability – not the outside situations that surround me. (Lord knows what a mess I would be if that were the case) Everytime I chose to trust rather than fear, life becomes much more "on track" because I'm less likely to be swayed by all the distractions. Love your post girl!

  • Matt Says:
    November 17th, 2010 at 9:18 am

    How do you know if the "detour" sign is from the Universe. guiding you to an alternative, but better place, or if it is just a fear/weakness within yourself that you need to address and fix? My problem with trusting a greater power is that I never know if it is "God" that is sending the message, or my own insecurities. How do I know the difference? The first one should be followed, the second one should be fixed. =0

  • Kim Says:
    November 17th, 2010 at 10:21 am

    I love this too – I need to trust more, that's for sure, so reading things like this really motivate me. It's tough sometimes to just let go and understand that you just can't control life, can't stop bad things from happening, you just have to live and deal with the bad things in a positive, proactive way when they DO happen. Thanks for the reminder!

  • Just Me Says:
    November 17th, 2010 at 10:55 am

    Love this.

  • deebuzzing Says:
    November 17th, 2010 at 11:10 am

    Ditto!

  • Maria Says:
    November 17th, 2010 at 11:19 am

    Thanks for sharing this, Nikki :)
    I have the feeling, it's not easy to talk about faith and trust in some higher power that might lead us and that you believe in such a power, or even about certain emotions, nowadays. It's really sad, I think everyone of us has an idea and thoughts about this but finds it problematic to talk about it.
    I like what you wrote, it's something I also do think about a lot, so thanks for sharing and inspiring us! :)

  • God Says:
    November 17th, 2010 at 1:06 pm

    love one another
    as I have loved you.

  • Guest Says:
    November 17th, 2010 at 1:20 pm

    love one another
    as I have loved you.

  • nikki_klecha Says:
    November 17th, 2010 at 2:45 pm

    Thanks, ladies!

  • nikki_klecha Says:
    November 17th, 2010 at 2:48 pm

    It can be really hard to trust & also hard to see a sign, especially when the sign is to let go of something you've been holding onto or points you in the opposite direction of what you WANT to be true. But I've found in my life – and it sounds like you have too – that trusting always leads to better. Sometimes a tiny sign is all we need. :) Thank YOU for reading & commenting!

  • nikki_klecha Says:
    November 17th, 2010 at 2:52 pm

    Such a good point! If I were to lean all my (metaphorical) weight on outside situations, I would constantly feel out of control & messy & terrified! Our world is always changing & we need to have stable trust in our internal workings (ourselves, our faith) and the bigger picture to stand strongly. I agree, I choose to trust because it makes life so much easier. :)

  • nikki_klecha Says:
    November 17th, 2010 at 2:54 pm

    It can be SO tough! But you're right, we can't control everything, we can only control how we react to things. I'm glad I could help you remember to let go; we all need that reminder sometimes!

  • nikki_klecha Says:
    November 17th, 2010 at 3:46 pm

    Matt, that is an awesome question. Sometimes it's fairly obvious – something falls into my lap or just feels unexpectedly right, and I know it's a detour I need to take. Sometimes the roadblock doesn't leave me with much choice & would be way too difficult to get around. But other times, it's really tough to tell, especially with the big questions; sometimes I really DON'T know.

    For example, I recently took a desk job in LA after thinking I was going to move. I'm not really sure if I took it out of fear (I totally need the money) or if this is an opportunity that will somehow give insight to the "what do I want to do for a living" question. But right now, I'm listening to my gut (do I feel happy? sad? anxious? restless?) and choosing to trust that I'll feel what's best and things will work out. I'm feeling good right now, so I'm going with it & I choose to trust (even if I'm unsure) that I'm on the right path. It also helps to remember that no decision is permanent and I can always change my mind!

  • nikki_klecha Says:
    November 17th, 2010 at 3:46 pm

    I think the first step is to get in touch with your gut instinct and be HONEST. If deep down inside, you feel really terrible about something, it's probably not good. BUT if it gives you nervous butterflies or you find yourself feeling excited but thinking of reasons why not to do it, that sounds like fear to me. Start facing your fears in other areas of your life, and start recognising your fear patterns – what brings your guard up? What "shoulds" or "musts" have you been telling yourself that might not be true? Then maybe the next time you hit a detour, it'll feel like an old familiar rut OR will be glaringly new, and you'll know what to choose from there.

    I face that same question all the time in my life. Thank you for bringing it up, and as you explore it, please let me know what you come up with too. Good luck, friend!!

  • Alisha Says:
    November 18th, 2010 at 11:33 am

    Thankyou for writing this. You put it in a way that I was unable to articulate.

  • nikki_klecha Says:
    November 19th, 2010 at 12:50 pm

    Thank you for reading; I'm glad what I wrote inspired you. It's not easy to talk about, because it can be such a hot-button issue, but the more people talk about it and find their similarities instead of differences, and leave the judgement up to God (or whatever higher power you believe in), the better we'll all get along. :)

  • nikki_klecha Says:
    November 19th, 2010 at 12:51 pm

    I'm glad you relate. :)

  • erinmakesitwork Says:
    November 23rd, 2010 at 11:41 am

    Beautiful! And this…The God I believe in created us all, loves us all and wants us all to love each other. The Universe I believe in is the way that all things are connected under God, and it responds to my energy because it is part of me. When I do good and feel good, I get good in return….sums up what I believe every day. Wouldn't the world be much simpler if we could all just learn to love one another?

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