Today we received our wedding video.
First I cried like a baby. Then I watched for the 107th time and was finally able to take it all in.
What an amazingly perfect day. Our friends and family enveloped us in so much love it was overwhelming. I found myself looking around during the set up and holding back tears. My brothers had ribbons in pretty girly colors hanging around their necks as they hung them from the arbor my dad made for us. My girlfriends and my mom’s girlfriends were arranging flowers we had picked ourselves the day before. Every person there – my brothers, my sister, my girlfriends, my parents, my mom’s best friends – they were all there out of sheer love. What an honor.
During our ceremony we thought it was important to have both sets of parents speak. They have both been together for over 30 years and were and are great inspirations to us as examples of successful marriages. Our parents could also not be more different, which gives us a unique perspective on how all kinds of relationships can flourish.
Listening to my dad talk about how proud he is of his children chokes me up every time. He’s a super loving dad, but is more of an actions speak louder than words kind of guy and rarely shares his feelings with us out loud (although that’s changing as we get older). He is mostly pretty quiet and prone to advice like, “Be reasonable.” But, when it was his turn to speak he said, “The biggest joy in my life has been my children. (Queue my tears) Watching them grow, watching them make decisions and choices — some good ones and some bad ones. Watching them improve in their decisions is the good part, and knowing that they’re getting somewhere. And so…the big decision is, really, learning what love is…and what it isn’t. And I think they’ve done a good job of that…or we wouldn’t be here.”
We couldn’t have made the decisions and choices, or built the lives we have without our parents. I wouldn’t know what love is without them. And in thinking about our amazing parents, I’ve also been thinking more and more about being ready to be a momma myself.
Mister and I have talked a lot lately about whether we’re ready, when is the ideal time, and what is our game plan (Answers: you’ll never actually be ready, there is no ideal time, and your game plan will go out the window anyway. I know.) I’ve been thinking a lot about the kind of parent I want to be. Having been a nanny for so long I think I have a pretty good idea of how I interact with kids on a daily basis. I know what works for me and what doesn’t. I know what pushes my buttons, what my limits are, and what makes me feel like the best caregiver I can be. I also know, as everyone tells me, that “It’s different with your own kids”. And I know that finding a balance between my pre-existing style of caregiving and Mister’s learning to be a parent will be a unique challenge. I know I will have to let go and let him find his own path which might be difficult for my Type A personality. Although, I don’t have a single doubt in my mind that he will be an amazing dad. With me he is attentive, kind, and affectionate. Just thinking about how he will be with our children makes me teary.
No matter what balance we find, there are some fundamental ideas I want us to teach our children:
To my babies,
Your Daddy and I love you more than anything and want you to be happy. Please don’t ever get caught up in our expectations of you. All we expect is that you find your happiness.
Do what makes you giddy. Do what you love. Surround yourself with people who love you. Don’t settle for less than you deserve. Actually, don’t settle at all.
Be a good friend. Be kind. Be honest with others and with yourself. Speak the truth with compassion. Give second chances. Keep your promises.
Trust yourself. Your heart will tell you what’s right. Always follow it. Express your emotions. They’re there for a reason.
When you make mistakes (and you will), do your best to fix them. Or at the very least, learn from them. When you hurt someone, say “I’m sorry”. And mean it. Remember you cannot be everything to everybody. You can only be you. And that is more than enough.
Never stop learning. There is an infinite amount of knowledge in this world. Soak it up. Travel. Explore. Embrace curiousity.
Treat your body with respect. Feed it well, move it often. Eat lots of leafy green vegetables. Eat a little chocolate too. Don’t wait for someone else to stamp you with their approval. Do what makes you feel good about you and approve of yourself.
You are beautiful. Never doubt that.
Be silly. Laugh a lot. Jump on the bed. Roll down a hill. Build a fort. Play. No matter how old you are.
Be inquisitive. Be adventurous. Try most things twice (in case you were in a bad mood the first time).
Vote. Put money in your savings account. Wear sunscreen.
Do something creative every day. Do something just for you every day. Embrace gratitude. Live YOUR life. Don’t try to live someone else’s. You will only do it badly. Own who you are. Really be in your life. Soak up the small moments. Sing. Loud. Dance. Create. Dream. Inspire. Love. Be loved.
That’s the easy part. You will always be loved.
Mom
And it’s interesting, isn’t it? That in speaking to my children (hypothetically) I might as well be speaking to myself. And in speaking to myself, I somehow hear my parents’ voices too.
[Photo credit: My family archives (nice sweater, Dad!) + Bb&Company]
I had the pleasure of meeting the gorgeous and badass Jenn Gibson on twitter, and her website, Roots of She, is one of my favorite places on the internet these days. (If you haven´t checked it out, go now – after you read the interview, of course. It´s an inspiring collection of shared stories for and by women, and I think you´ll love it, too)
I think she´s rad, and I was thrilled that she was willing to share a piece of her story with me for the Stratejoy tribe! I´ll let you meet her in her own words:
In 100 words or fewer, who’s Jenn?
I’m a yoga lover and a believer in the power of dreaming big. Kittens and dancing make my heart go pitty-pat. I moved back home over the summer, bought a little house near the beach and love being so close to my family again. I write gratitude lists more often than to-do lists, and my favorite things right now are watching the leaves fall, listening to the wind high up in the trees, drinking hot tea and the quiet time before sunrise.
What motivated you to start Roots of She?
Because a site like this needed to exist. I’m coming to the table with feminist beliefs and a deep-seated need to translate those beliefs into something empowering and welcoming. My intention for this site: to act as a gathering place for women, a place where we can share our stories, no matter what flavor or bent they take. Think of a country porch on a cool summer evening, sitting around in rocking chairs or swings with mugs of tea in your hand – that feeling of home, safety, connection, solidarity. That’s how I hope you feel when you visit.
With Roots of She, you’ve created the opportunity to connect with so many amazing women. What have you learned from the tribe members that’s touched you the most deeply?
Wow, that’s a tough question because these women teach me every time they put fingertips to keyboard. One thing that’s resonating right now is something that Hannah taught me — the power of making my bed each morning. I would never make my bed before, absolutely loathed doing it, viewed it as a waste of time. I took her course The Joy Up over the summer and one segment of it was about making your bed. Something simple, right? So, grumbling and huffing and probably stomping my feet some, I started making my bed. Then I noticed that setting my space to rights each morning was calming, soothing. Relaxing, even, because I knew that when I would go to sleep that night, my bed would be a peaceful place. The sheets would be pulled up, the pillows plumped. There would be no chaos of tangled and jumbled sheets, no blankets left in disarray. It establishes my room as sacred space.
Do you feel like you’re going through/went through a quarterlife crisis? Tell me a little bit about your experience of it.
Oh, if you were here, you’d've just heard such an inelegant and loud snort. Yes, I totally went through a quarterlife crisis, complete with John Mayer soundtrack. I graduated from college when I was 23 and jumped right into working at a newspaper — oh man, journalism just got me so revved up. And then… and then it didn’t anymore. Then I got tired of being told which stories to tell and how to tell them. It just wasn’t working for me, and I angsted all over my friends and family. I had no idea what to do, I felt so small and lost. After a while, I decided that I’d go to grad school and get certified to teach. I loved working with kids and ensuring that they had a strong foundation of knowing that… they were enough, that they could do anything, it was so important to me. One thing led to another and I had to put those dreams on pause. Once in a while I would wonder what life would be like, who I would’ve become, if things had been different, but life is awesome from where I’m standing, I’m happy.
Who/what inspires you?
Who: Danette Relic. Hannah Marcotti. Pixie Campbell. Amanda Oaks. Rachael Maddox. Gwen Bell. Tara Wagner. Jen Lemen.
What: The smallness of every day. Baptiste yoga. Being around people who get so jazzed on life it can’t help but rub off.
Who/what challenges you?
Who: Me. I get in my own way so often, bahaha. Sometimes I get so wound up about things that it feels like I’m literally standing in my own way. When that happens I know I need to take a break and step away from things.
What: Anxiety and depression.
As you know, I’m a girl who loves to travel, so I love other people’s travel stories. What’s your favorite place that you’ve ever visited? Why?
Hee! I love San Diego! I went there a couple of years ago — it was in February, the East Coast had just gotten spanked by two blizzards, and days after that, there I am standing on a pier and people are apologizing to me for it only being 60 degrees. I couldn’t believe it, it was amazing and something I never thought I’d be able to do. Oh wow, the ocean was so big and pretty. It was vast and I looked out and thought it was the most beautiful thing I’d ever seen.
Any final words of wisdom for the Stratejoy tribe?
Hmm. Yes, actually. These are the things I wish someone had told me when I was 25 and 23 and 28: Your value and worth exceeds any dollar amount. You can do anything, even if you don’t believe it right now, even if things are hard, your potential is limitless. Be fierce and fearless, trust in yourself and your tribe. And when you get scared, remember to breathe. You can handle anything a breath at a time.
Being asked to choose one fabulous woman in my life to interview is a bit of a challenge, because I am simply blessed to know so many. My final choice was based on my current professional interactions because the women involved are more than just co-workers, but inspirations and teachers.
I probably have learned more from them in the past year than most of my college career, about how to be fierce, in love with my passions, and how to work hard to change the world in different ways. By day, I am invested in my work at the Zoo, by night, with the Emery Theater. My time and love are devoted to both, so it only made sense to interview a woman from each. They both are different as night and day, yet inspire me, encourage me, and patiently mentor me during this time of my young life.
At the Zoo, Heather M. is my supervisor. I was immediately drawn to the no-nonsense way she managed with a liberal sprinkling of silly and fun throughout everything she does. Her patience with me is ten-fold when I don’t understand something or have trouble with a project. She has brought new, creative life to our corner of Zoo education and watching what she brainstorms next is always enlightening and exciting. I am so thankful to have her to guide me during my days at the Zoo.
Give us a brief snapshot of who you are, what you do for a living, what do you enjoy doing outside of work:
“My title at the Zoo is On-site School Programs Coordinator. I have the best balance of working indoors or outdoors, with people or animals (or both!). I like that I can be creative in my career, but also enjoy the physical sides of working with the animals. Outside of work I enjoy listening to live music, roller skating, and blogging about my amazing cat.”
Tell us about the path you took to get where you are today.
“My path has been pretty darn focused ever since 4th grade. I went to Oregon State University to pursue a B.S. in Zoology. After two years of failing multiple math and chemistry classes I realized I needed to adjust my degree and switched into Fisheries & Wildlife. I was taking classes on fish, mammals, trees; it was the best change I ever made. During college I volunteered at a local wildlife rehabilitation center. This was my first real experience working with animals and people in an educational setting, and it opened my eyes to how obviously effective it was at inspiring others about wildlife and conservation.
After college, I got an internship with the Cheyenne Mountain Zoo in Colorado working with the education department. I led overnight programs, summer camp, toddler classes, pretty much anything educational – I was there. I moved on to work in a residential education program on a barrier island in Georgia. We taught middle school students many different lessons related to science and ecology. The long hours and intense workload had me looking elsewhere after a year (most people only stay for a year in those programs), and I took up a seasonal position with the Vermont Institute of Natural Science. They had just opened a public exhibit featuring rehabilitated birds of prey and I was part of the bird show. Training birds and being on the big stage was such a fun experience, but show life got to be a bit too redundant. Off to Virginia, where I’d found the perfect job: environmental educator at a nature center. This was a mix of all the best parts of what I’d done elsewhere. I stayed for 3 years then moved on to become the education manager at a small river conservation group. After another 3 years, I was itching to get back to a zoo. And now here I am (whew!)!”
Was there a specific moment that really clarified what you wanted to do with your life? If so, what was it?
“In 4th grade, we were learning about animals. Playing games and learning about careers. I knew I wanted to be a Zoologist or anything that involved working with animals, but not a vet (I didn’t want to be faced with putting animals down). The rest is history.”
What is your personal motto or mission statement?
“Actions speak louder than words.”
Besides your daily work, what are you passionate about?
“Making sure I have more fun. I feel too responsible and am always trying have more fun because life is too short.”
What helps you get out of bed in the morning on bad days?
“Always having my alarm loud and turned to talk radio so I have to get up and cross the room to turn it off. And hungry cats (they always do silly things to get me out of bed).”
What advice would you give to other women about choosing what to do with their lives?
“Do something that you like. That is the most important thing. If you don’t like it, move to something else. Life is too short to trudge through for a paycheck or because you can’t find something better. There is always something better, but you won’t find it if you aren’t really looking for it.”
The first time I met Tara G., I knew she was someone special. She just exuded a natural confidence and quiet thoughtfulness that made me desire to work with and learn from her. Her passion for her the arts and The Requiem Project are inspiring and challenge me to dig deep to find that same passion for what I love. As inexperienced and young as I am, she placed complete trust in me to help with this massive project which I will never forget.
Give us a snapshot of who you are, what you do for a living, what do you enjoy doing outside of work:
” I am 31, I am from Boston and moved to New York City to attend Tisch School of the Arts. I lived and worked in New York City for over 11 years in the theatre world, and have a Master’s from New York University. I practice yoga. I love to cook. I have been traveling a lot recently, especially to South America. I just learned to drive.”
Tell us about the path you took to get where you are today.
“Three years ago I was so moved by a project to revitalize a theatre, The Emery Theatre, that I changed my life for it, and moved from New York City (home) to Cincinnati, Ohio. I did not even know where Cincinnati was on a map. I continually ask myself “who moves for a building?” But the building, has given me so much— the generosity of the people and artists here make me want to be find more ways to be kind, to show up, to be generous. I am having conversations here that that are more engaging and inspiring than I have ever had anywhere else.”
Was there a specific moment that really clarified what you wanted to do with your life? If so, what was it?
“No. I had two moments that I realized I wanted to embrace something, and so I became a blonde at 25, and three weeks ago I dyed by hair brown.“
What is your personal motto or mission statement?
“Kindness goes a long way. (which is not to say I am not sarcastic).”
Besides your daily work, what are you passionate about?
“I think women should make it a priority support women’s businesses.”
What helps you get out of bed in the morning on bad days?
“I don’t think its a choice. The more commitments you make to other people the more you have to show up. Maybe the greatest lesson that I heave learned is that its not about me doing what I want to do, but supporting other people’s loves, work and investments. I have to remind myself ‘it’s not about me’.”
What advice would you give to other women about choosing what to do with their lives?
“Your life changes all the time, and that can be a good thing. Embrace the unexpected because you really don’t have a choice. Anxiety (while it’s my fuel) is really just reversed imagination, so try stuff. Scary is fine.”
Both women are incredible flowers in my life’s garden, and I am incredibly thankful for their presence and support.
{Photo Credit: John Covera}
The first time I saw Kate MacIntosh was at a New England Museum conference in November 2010 when she was presenting a session on the use of contemporary art at historic sites. This past January, I had the chance to meet Kate and pick her brain about the topic when we both went on a field trip for the Boston Emerging Museum Professionals. Her love of museums, art, and educating and engaging visitors is a much needed and awesome contribution to the field, but more importantly, I think she is one of the coolest people I have ever met.
Kate is one of those folks who takes an idea and runs with it. She is a true leader in every sense of the word, taking risks and making her opinions known. I chose to interview her for this post because while her particular focus in career is museums and art, her ideas about life and going after what you want is something that so many people, no matter the field you work in, can take some cues from.
Kate currently works as an independent museum professional, which might be one of the toughest fields in the current state of the economy. In addition to her work helping historic sites integrate contemporary art into their interpretation, she also works as a teaching assistant at the Harvard Extension School in Cambridge, where she earned her Master’s Degree in 2010.
What makes her awesome at what she does is her passion for art, history, and museums. Kate says, “I love working for smaller museums, because every day is different and requires me to use different skills and abilities, and apply myself in ways I may have never considered or tried. The ability to wear “multiple hats” keeps me motivated, challenged, and excited about what I am doing. Having been laid off from a past museum position, and knowing others who have been as well, I fear what the field is facing, and where museums may head without attention, intervention, and a reevaluation of their relevancy and futures.”
That passion stems from working in the museum field for the past seven years, as well as her background as an artist herself. Her undergrad thesis work was “life-sized paper doll outfits exploring different aspects of my personality. I’ve built on this concept, and recently wove a three-dimensional, wearable, paper dress out of ‘Vogue’ magazine pages, and red, white, and black paper. The dress was installed on a mannequin in the window of a local gallery, and the installation also included a shopping cart and harajuku-inspired groceries.” She uses fashion magazines and blogs to provide inspiration for her sculptural art creations. Her work as an artist and her museum work allows Kate to cross the divide with contemporary artists and historic sites- she has helped facilitate some really awesome projects ( check out her site here) and I know she will continue to do this on a larger scale as her career grows.
I admire Kate not just because of her take charge attitude and making a name for herself in the museum world at the early stage of her career, but also because she has an awesome spirit. She says, “Laughing often is key, and definitely brings me great joy. There are times to be serious, but I really try to focus on a ‘turn that frown upside down’ approach to things. I have learned to try to surround myself with others who like to have fun, and try to make time to be with those friends, family, and colleagues on a regular basis. Breaking out into song and dance also helps. Whether this is something I do with others (usually to my own embarrassment) or by myself (while singing in the car), it helps shake off the serious of life and clear the way for whatever is next.”
A die hard Bruins fan, Kate’s perfect day is “ waking up (not too early), coffee and a fashion magazine or book, working on a sculptural dress or installation elements for a few hours, and heading to a hockey game; can we add not having to wake up too early the next day? More like a perfect 24+ hours!” She also has great taste in music, which is her cure for those blah gross days. Kate says, “Playing really, really loud music in the car and singing (even if it means making up the lyrics because I don’t know the real ones) while driving helps on blue days. It is nice to let it all go, and nothing helps more than a song like “I’m Just a Girl” by No Doubt or “Date with the Night” by the Yeah Yeah Yeahs.”
I asked Kate what her advice to a bright eyed 22 year old just out of college would be. She said,
“Put yourself first in all decisions, and take risks when there is more to gain than lose. Putting yourself first in all decisions (something I was not very good at, and am still working on now) will help you to never say in the future, “what if.” Taking risks is crucial, as it will help you discover the real you. Too scared of risks? I use the pro/con list method; if there is more to gain from taking the risk than to lose, jump in. If you find there are more cons, maybe it is not the right risk to get you where you want to be.”
Seriously something I’m going to consider more for sure!
The rest of 2011 is filled with a lot of excitement for Kate. Last year she started a bucket list that she is slowly knocking items off, while at the same time adding new challenges as she grows and learns. A big goal on her list is to visit a museum or historic site in every state in the country (something her and I share). She’s pushing ahead towards her dream goal of working as a curator at MoMA in NYC by doing consulting for museums and some writing projects for blogs.
Kate is not only is she amazing at what she does, she is the kind of fun girl you want to have around. One of the best times in the past few months I have had was a week in May when we both were at the national museum conference in Houston. She also has one of the best wardrobes ever!
This is why I admire Kate: she has an idea, a passion, and she is pursuing it to the fullest ability she can in order to live her most joyful and authentic voice. And if that’s not rock star status, I don’t know what is.
[Photo Credit: From Kate's Facebook, photo by Leslie!]
The assignment called for me to interview an AMAZING woman in her twenties or thirties. I tell this to Laina and she laughs.
“I just turned forty,” she says.
I’m shocked. I could have sworn we had shared some good ‘Saved by the Bell’ jokes at one point. I figured we were the same age. Laina and I met in our Master’s program for Spiritual Psychology at the University of Santa Monica. I think she’s amazing because she’s a shining ray of light. She exhales positivity as she runs a business she loves. Plus, she’s able to help me look at things from all sorts of angles. A problem solver and an organizer, she reminds me of how balanced I’d like to be. One day.
Right after she picks up the phone, Laina has to call me back because she’s spilled green juice on her comforter. It makes me think I might like to add some greens to my diet. When she calls me back, I tell her that I’m not continuing the Spiritual Psychology program at USM because I’m overwhelmed and don’t feel in control of my time.
She recommends Time Warrior, a book by life coach Steve Chandler. Then she suggests I write down what I do every single day in order to track my time. From there, I can make a schedule and see how I can better spend it.
I’ve talked to Laina for two minutes, and she’s already inspired me to change my diet and overhaul my life. I’ve also made the whole thing about ME! Finally, we get to her story.
Tell me how you got to this point. Where did you start?
I was in fashion for 16 years [I still cannot believe she’s forty]! I worked in the corporate world of fashion, overseeing multiple stores. I was in charge of sales, people, marketing, operations, and merchandising.
What kind of stores?
High end boutiques, most recently Coach. I was in charge of all the New England stores.
Wow! That’s a nice job.
It was really great at first. I traveled to Europe with the Gap when they were expanding. I loved how challenging and rewarding my career was. But, still… I felt like something was missing. I wanted to do something that resonated in my heart. I took those ‘what’s your career path?’ tests and went through a really confusing time during that last year at Coach. I was supposed to be motivating my team, and I felt so fake all of a sudden.
And then you finally quit?
I got laid off in May of 2010. I was devastated at first, which was weird. I felt like I’d lost part of my identity as someone who worked in fashion. Then I realized it was a gift, that the universe made the decision I had been reluctant to make.
So, then you started your organizing business?
First I went through a questioning period. What do I do with my life? Where should I live? What’s in my heart? I took time off to figure it out. It was supposed to be three months and then it came to be a year. I spent a summer traveling and listening to my thoughts. I ended up in Nepal for an inner and outer journey. That trip was life-changing. At the end of the trip, I realized something: 3 out of the 8 people on the trip were graduates of USM, and those people stood out from the others. They were all calm and had this energy about them that I really loved. I got on a plane and was in school three days later. Then I moved to California.
And then you started your organizing business?
Yes. School helped me to really focus and define what I wanted. Now I have Simplify in Style. I love redesigning rooms to give everything a space. But then I help people create better habits for organizing. I make life simpler for a lot of people.
I have seen Laina work with clients, and it’s truly amazing. She claims to be an organizer, but she’s much more. She helps people think differently about their “things.” She rearranges homes and thoughts. She gets people on track. She is a coach, a friend, and an open-minded idea generator.
So, you’re basically changing how people live?
Yeah!
How does that feel?
It’s weird that it’s exactly what I was looking for when I got laid off. I figured out what I’m good at, and it feels really good because I’m giving back. Especially NOW. There’s so much stress in the world right now. We have so much information and there’s so much going back and forth. I don’t believe our brains were built to handle all this stuff. So, if what I do helps people simplify their mental and physical pollution, then that makes me happy.
Do you practice what you preach? How do you stay organized?
Yes. I’ve always been organized. My motto is “everything has a home.” In terms of ‘simplifying,’ I started that last year. It’s been a process. I started minimizing drama. I had to separate myself from some friends who I thought were cluttering my life with drama. Then I got rid of two-thirds of all my clothes! I had three closets before.
Was that hard?
Yes! It was a process, but I feel so much lighter. I only really wore 30% of my clothes. Some stuff I sold and made $3000! And that definitely felt good. And then there are the little things. I cleaned out my email.
Oh my gosh! I have 12,000 UNREAD emails alone, but it’s too daunting to go through them all.
I can get that down to 1000 in an hour! Then, I can help you get it down to a manageable number, like 50. Then I can help you think differently about your email so it doesn’t get to 12,000 again.
UNREAD! Probably 50,000 total. Eek! Oops, I’ve made it about me again. Now I know what all my ex-boyfriends meant about that. Any other advice for people who might be going through their crisis now?
Stop! At one point, just stop! Take a week off from your normal routine. Take a break from technology. Have alone time. Start journaling. See what comes up and identify what’s the mental and physical pollution and potential solutions in your life. Maybe list it. Then prioritize what’s important to you. Also, hire me!
Would you give Stratejoy readers a discount?
Of course! If you want your house or mind re-oranized, check me out at SimplifyinStyle.com
Before we hang up, Laina asks me a few simple questions. Suddenly I’ve decided to continue my studies at our school. She’s convinced me that the problem I have with time is all in my head. The woman is magical. I fear she can convince me to do anything, so I hang up on her.