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posted 4th January 2010    Written by: Marisa    CATEGORY: All Posts, Inspiration, Marisa, Quarterlife Crisis, Season 1

I’ve always been fascinated with people who have an extraordinary amount of self-confidence.

And it’s not the selfish narcissistic shallow, physical self-confidence that is mostly defined in our society.

For me, it’s the assurance of oneself that he or she can do anything and everything (mentally and physically). That’s the self-confidence that I envy the most, the one I’ve been searching for, for pretty much an entire year. And I found it.

Well, I didn’t find all of it, if there’s even a logical count for it all. It’s fleeting sometimes, in perhaps all aspects, but BY JOVE, I’ve got some alright.

26 years is a long time to be searching… I would have benefited with an early discovery in high school and most likely it would have helped a lot in college, but I’m grateful for what I’ve got now. This discovery or self-fulfillment may sound trivial to some and even unimportant to others, but I never realized before how important it is to have a positive belief in oneself, not just to ride the wave of encouragement or support from others. This form of confidence has to come from within.

A sensitive pride is hard to protect with so many outside influences and factors. I used to spend a lot of time not believing in certain ideas and dreams and thus quitting many activities. It was just easier to quit before I even dared to risk.

And now things are different.

I have my Quarterlife Crisis in part to thank for that. With being involved more in High Scores and Records and my job, my efforts are totally paying off because I took those risks. I start my new Logistics Specialist position tomorrow at lucy and even though I literally have NO idea what I’m getting myself into, but I’m gonna risk it. I have a feeling it’s going to involve a lot of acronyms and international shipping codes.

A new year has arrived; memories of 2009 will soon make way for 2010 and there will be plenty of opportunities to build that self-confidence for the unmarked year.

photo credit : desiree delgado

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