Self-employed. Independent contractor. Full-time freelancer. Consultant.
I’ve been back on that track now for two full work-weeks, and I’m still not quite sure how to say what it is I’m doing. I have two long-term contracts and am constantly picking up shorter projects. My work varies from writing to consulting to setting up blogs to writing strategies to advising to marketing to public relations and commentary on all things tech and advertising.
I swing like a pendulum back and forth between “oh my god, I’m totally doing this,” to “what is it exactly that I’m doing?” I wrestle with the idea that I need an official business title and name to contain these services that I provide and make a living on, and yet – I wonder where that desire is coming from. Will it make me more legitimate? Will it make me feel more official? Or is it an actual advantage to have that organization bubble around it all?
I know when I work best. I’m efficient in the mornings and creative in the evenings, and in the last two weeks I’ve made an effort to structure my days around that knowledge. Do tasks that require logic and analytics and efficiency during the mornings, and do creative writing, photo editing, etc., at nights. So, I’ve got my professional schedule almost down to a solid, effective routine.
My personal schedule on the other hand still needs some work. I thought having the “freedom” to structure my days as I saw fit meant I’d finally get back on a regular (daily!) yoga schedule, but that hasn’t happened yet. I thought I’d have a cleaner house and be done purging my bedroom of stuff and things I don’t need, but that hasn’t happened yet. I thought I’d read more books, send more cards, and take more walks, but that hasn’t happened yet either.
Travel is a priority and slight addiction of mine, and this month is just a testament to that. From August 27 – October 5, I’ll be out of town 21 days, have visited 4 different cities, been on 4 flights, and road-tripped over 2,000 miles. And in doing so, I won’t be taking any vacation time (well, maybe a day or two while I’m in Minnesota for a wedding and to see my family) – mostly because I don’t have official vacation time, but also because it’s been a life dream and goal of mine to make travel a part of my lifestyle, so it’s morphing into this new thing I’m still adjusting to.
I’m not taking vacation time because I’m not not working while I’m traveling.
Travel isn’t an escape, a vacation, or a getaway – at least two of these trips aren’t. The whole idea behind Location Independence, working from home, etc., is to be able to include travel as a part of my routine, my lifestyle while still managing clients and moving my business forward – whatever shape that business takes.
When travel isn’t an escape or a vacation, you have to strip away ideas of “well, I’m on vacation, I can splurge on this, I can drink too much, I can ignore emails,” and instead stay within a budget, treat Tuesday night like Tuesday night (and not Saturday night), and stay up on e-mails.
The fun thing about writing this season for Stratejoy is that my life is literally in a new transition with every post. Leaving my full-time job, balancing relationships while I learn how to work from home again, and incorporating travel as a lifestyle instead of an escape – this isn’t something I’m sharing with you having “figured out,” but rather as-it-happens, this-is-where-I’m-at map-dots of my life as it unfolds. And it’s a little scary to admit – even to myself – that I don’t have it all figured out just yet.
However, the even more fun part about writing here this season while my life is moving into a new chapter – I know that there’s more coming, and I can’t wait to share that with you.
Being self employed is seriously hard.
Not that I really consider myself self employed. One would assume that if you’re self employed, you’re making money. I’m not. Let’s be honest about that. I’m working my ass off from the comfort of my home, for nothing more than the satisfaction of doing exactly what I want.
Seriously. That’s it.
Hopefully, one day, someone will pay me for my hard work. For now, I’ll have to settle for satisfaction.
So back to why it’s hard to work for myself. Actually – let me first tell you the perks. For starters, my boss rocks! She let’s me come in when I want, take breaks when I want, take long lunches, waste hours on the internet and leave when I want.
How’s that for freedom?
What’s the downside to having the best boss in the world? Well, it’s all this damn freedom. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE it. But it does take a bit of an adjustment and some serious self-discipline not to blow the whole day Facebook stalking old flames and watching Gilmore Girls reruns.
Seriously, I thought I would leave my job and immediately move into being uber productive and massively efficient. I would redesign my website on Monday, write a novel by Wednesday and be a bestselling author by Friday. Sounds reasonable, doesn’t it?
Okay, perhaps I’m exaggerating a bit. But I really did think that switching from being a micro-managed employee to someone who works for herself would be simple.
I’m not finding it so easy.
I’ve always been great with time management. I’m a ninja multi-tasker, and I kick ass when it comes to productivity. Being productive, no sweat!
But I find that I excel most when I have a deadline. In this new venture, I have no deadlines (no real ones anyway).
I need to give myself structure – to schedule my days in ways that keep me working and productive, to stop getting sidetracked by every little thing that crosses my path.
A few “self-employed” things have helped so far:
So that’s where I’m at so far. I’d love to hear some of your ideas. Have you found ways to stay on track and keep productive when working on your own projects or being self employed?
[Editor's Note: Just in case you lovely people haven't checked out Heather Rae's personal blog- do it! You can follow more of her adventures and reflections as she writes a novel, travels the world and pursues her passions. And bonus of all bonuses- today she wrote about her experiences thus far with the Joy Plan! Personal values, anyone?]
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